I hate blurry bell jars...

sometimes do you feel crappy for no reason at all? I feel wonderful. On top of the world and then all of a sudden I feel like.....(sigh).  Sometimes it feels like I can keep walking till my feet just give and just stay wherever it is that i fall.

Lets face it, Im high maintenance, and I need a certain level of people around me, especially around my birthday, but each year I feel more alone. I feel empty. I hate feeling like this, its not even attention grabbing Leo, just the damn blurriness of the same old bell jar.

and Im so tired of it. When Im wonderful, Im wonderful and can't even understand the mentality, but when I'm blurred. Blurry is all I see.

"We Might As Well Be Strangers"

I don't know your face no more
Or feel your touch that I adore
I don't know your face no more
It's just a place I'm looking for 
We might as well be strangers in another town
We might as well be living in a different world
We might as well
We might as well
We might as well 

I don't know your thoughts these days
We're strangers in an empty space
I don't understand your heart
It's easier to be apart 

We might as well be strangers in another town
We might as well be living in a another time
We might as well
We might as well
We might as well be strangers
Be strangers
For all I know of you now
For all I know of you now
For all I know of you now
For all I know