I am SO anti-social right now:
Right, so its sunday morning (afternoon) and alls I want is to lounge in my pj's w wild hair and my dogs piled around me watching BBC. Y then do people find the need to drop by un-announced? Gay! We have to make a mad dash to pretend to clean, I gotta hide in my room or gussie up and go chit chat about things I couldn't care less about....
being in a foul mood from having my Top Gear marathon interrupted, I chose the latter....lol! I sit here in my dark room with the tv off so no one knows Im home typing away, waiting with baited breath for people to leave. GAY!
I ignored the soft knock someone gave my door and am hearing them laugh downstairs, but Im stubborn and refuse to put on some jeans and play nice. Im bored. Going to roll over and go back to sleep. DOUBLE GAY
Sunday, December 5
Thursday, December 2
Damn things not being fast enough for me!!
darn it all and back again! So you know how I'm horribly compulsive and obsessive about things. Well surprise surprise....i've found something else Im totally obsessive about. Now it's the BBC's Top Gear and its presenters. My happy obsession is made even more absurd because instead of downloading all 19-odd seasons (as I was wont to do) I found out that Netflix streams seasons 9 and up. And get this....I can netflix on my netbook, on the desktop hooked up to the 60" downstairs, AND it streams straight to my iphone. I can more than feed my Top Gear Petrol Head habit.
My psychosis runs much farther than brain rot from show overload, I've gone as far as Wiki-ing the host and knowing all kinds of details of their lives and learning about cars. yup....wipe ur glasses, u read right....Im trying to learn about cars. Just the other day I was having the biggest headache of all time because I was trying to understand Overrdrive and gears. It has all of a sudden become my life mission to learn to drive a stick shift!!
I want nothing more than to save up a couple of hundred dollars, to buy myself a shitty little car that I can abuse and experiment on doing all kinds of things like drifting, donuts, and just plain old breaking the Hell out of the transmission. I am truly a woman obsessed. The question is: For how long? That, unfortunately, I don't know the answer to. I was obsessed with Ouran for a cool minute....like 2 and a half years....and I still pop the DVD's in or stream it via Netflix every now and then, just cuz I can, but its certainly not as bad as it was when I first discovered the awesomeness of it.
The thing is, Im doing my best to KEEP feeding this addiction......Jeremy Clarkson, James May, Richard Hammond, and even Ben Collins (The Stig) have written books! And I am dying to read them.....therein lies my problem..
So its hard enough to find the stupid books (especially Stiggy's book...Im dying for that one since it just came out), but when I do, shipping takes 2-4 MONTHS just to leave the warehouse in the UK. crap it all to heck and back again! Naturally, I turn to my good friends who let me "borrow" things via torrent community, and I can't find any of the books at all! Grrrr! I resort to Kindle and ebook formats, for as much as it pains me to do so to BUY the stupid books, so long as I get them instant (for my instant gratification and all) and then I find out that due to stoopid copyright restrictions, some of them (especially STIGGY'S) cannot be gotten in the US. WTF!!
Needless to say...my wallet thank you stupid copyright laws (nonsensical too), but my heart and head would punch you in the face if you were a person. I'm just saying...
My psychosis runs much farther than brain rot from show overload, I've gone as far as Wiki-ing the host and knowing all kinds of details of their lives and learning about cars. yup....wipe ur glasses, u read right....Im trying to learn about cars. Just the other day I was having the biggest headache of all time because I was trying to understand Overrdrive and gears. It has all of a sudden become my life mission to learn to drive a stick shift!!
I want nothing more than to save up a couple of hundred dollars, to buy myself a shitty little car that I can abuse and experiment on doing all kinds of things like drifting, donuts, and just plain old breaking the Hell out of the transmission. I am truly a woman obsessed. The question is: For how long? That, unfortunately, I don't know the answer to. I was obsessed with Ouran for a cool minute....like 2 and a half years....and I still pop the DVD's in or stream it via Netflix every now and then, just cuz I can, but its certainly not as bad as it was when I first discovered the awesomeness of it.
The thing is, Im doing my best to KEEP feeding this addiction......Jeremy Clarkson, James May, Richard Hammond, and even Ben Collins (The Stig) have written books! And I am dying to read them.....therein lies my problem..
So its hard enough to find the stupid books (especially Stiggy's book...Im dying for that one since it just came out), but when I do, shipping takes 2-4 MONTHS just to leave the warehouse in the UK. crap it all to heck and back again! Naturally, I turn to my good friends who let me "borrow" things via torrent community, and I can't find any of the books at all! Grrrr! I resort to Kindle and ebook formats, for as much as it pains me to do so to BUY the stupid books, so long as I get them instant (for my instant gratification and all) and then I find out that due to stoopid copyright restrictions, some of them (especially STIGGY'S) cannot be gotten in the US. WTF!!
Sunday, October 31
Broken heart for my baby
Yesterday I felt the worst pain I've ever felt in my whole life.
Someone came to my home and stole my Diablito, my baby. He was four years old and always had that stupid vacant face dogs get but he also had that adorable wolfie grin like he was always laughing.
Who comes into a home and steals a beloved pet? Who does that? What kind of evil human being breaks a families heart like that? I want to scream at the top of my lungs. I want to rant and rage and just stop this empty feeling in my heart and knot of dread in the pit of my stomach.
I'm between denial and anger. I pray to anybody up in the skies listening. Please...PLEASE let him be okay.
If he never returns....please let him be in a good home with people that love him and are kind to him. Let him stay warm and comfortable and live long and happy and have plenty of milkbones and tennis balls.
I have to stop. My eyes are wtering so much it makes it hard to see. I'm offering a hundred dollar reward for his return, but I am not optimistic. God, I know I'm contrary and difficult. And I question everything and don't try enough, but please be kind to this wicked sinner even if she doesn't deserve it. I will.....no. No empty promises I won't remember. Please help him. Please let them b good to him. Please. From the bottom of my heart of hearts.
- meow
Someone came to my home and stole my Diablito, my baby. He was four years old and always had that stupid vacant face dogs get but he also had that adorable wolfie grin like he was always laughing.
Who comes into a home and steals a beloved pet? Who does that? What kind of evil human being breaks a families heart like that? I want to scream at the top of my lungs. I want to rant and rage and just stop this empty feeling in my heart and knot of dread in the pit of my stomach.
I'm between denial and anger. I pray to anybody up in the skies listening. Please...PLEASE let him be okay.
If he never returns....please let him be in a good home with people that love him and are kind to him. Let him stay warm and comfortable and live long and happy and have plenty of milkbones and tennis balls.
I have to stop. My eyes are wtering so much it makes it hard to see. I'm offering a hundred dollar reward for his return, but I am not optimistic. God, I know I'm contrary and difficult. And I question everything and don't try enough, but please be kind to this wicked sinner even if she doesn't deserve it. I will.....no. No empty promises I won't remember. Please help him. Please let them b good to him. Please. From the bottom of my heart of hearts.
- meow
Location:Home
Thursday, October 28
Severus and other Flawed characters
Im re-reading Bree Despain "The Dark Divine" and I had a bit of a revelation. I hate perfect people. Grrrrr. The character Grace is so "good" she's stupid. Never questioning her parents, doing things people tell her to do. Not pushing?
I guess I don't like it cuz I can't relate. I like flawed characters. I like the thought of redemption and correcting mistakes. I guess it's cuz I'm flawed and like to believe in salvation.
Perfect Grace is so damn annoying. If my fam sent me away an my pseudo bro disappeared, I wouldn't meekly leave, return and go back to normal. WTF?! I'd go Nancy Drew on their asses. Grace can't even lie to her parents. Her bro gets all wierd, her pseudo bro disappears and she returns to life as usual?
She didn't deserve Daniel.
I'm frustrated. I have to go cuz I have to stop this stupid audio book. It's pissing me off.
I guess I don't like it cuz I can't relate. I like flawed characters. I like the thought of redemption and correcting mistakes. I guess it's cuz I'm flawed and like to believe in salvation.
Perfect Grace is so damn annoying. If my fam sent me away an my pseudo bro disappeared, I wouldn't meekly leave, return and go back to normal. WTF?! I'd go Nancy Drew on their asses. Grace can't even lie to her parents. Her bro gets all wierd, her pseudo bro disappears and she returns to life as usual?
She didn't deserve Daniel.
I'm frustrated. I have to go cuz I have to stop this stupid audio book. It's pissing me off.
Location:Home...reading
Monday, September 20
10 years...Holy Cow
Day off and listening to Snapecast, which I haven't listened to in about a year.... Its their 4-yr anniversary and as they reminisce, so do I.
2007 sounds like it was so long ago. So long ago. Nostalgia.... Thanks to my crack-head co-workers, Im a Facebook fiend and update like crazy. Since I've been using it for a few months, recently, I had a lot of high school friends adding and requesting me. I think I kinda freaked. not because I didn't want to talk to these people or anything, but it just brought so much to the forefront.
Next year...(in a few months) will make 10 years since graduation. What the hell happened in all these years?
Its like i was so caught up w my own life and experiences and got some tunnel vision and before I know it, its about to be time for the reunion. wow.
I think I kind of got a little panic attack when I start thinking about it. Am I going to go next year? I used to say Hell No. Now that I actually started chatting with some of the HS crowd on FB, it might not be so bad.
Time needs to stop. now.
Oh yeah...side note...went to Magic 2weeks ago w my Baby Daddy, Alex, and Milti and ended up passing out from heat stroke.....LMAO. Never thought I would be one of those people. My poor boys. I kinda killed the mood. In my defense, it was so hot the burn on my hand that was already a week old, started bubbling just from standing in line. it was 90+. Looking forward to making it up, at least to my Baby Daddy by going to see Phantom of The Opera in 10 days and will enjoy Oktoberfest this sat!!!
Tuesday, July 6
Poems for my life esp about my love life
"If little by little. You stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.
If suddenly
You forget me
Do not look for me
For I shall already have forgotten you.
But
If each day, each hour,
You feel that you are destined for me
With impecable sweetness,
If each day a flower
Climbs up to your lips to seek me,
Ah my love, ah my own,
In me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
My love feeds on your love, beloved,
And as long as you live it will be in your arms
Without leaving mine"
- If you Forget Me by Pablo Naruto
"In the desert
I saw a creature, naked, bestial,
Who, squatting upon the ground,
Held his heart in his hands,
And ate of it.
I said: 'Is it good, friend?'
'It is bitter-bitter,' he answered;
'But I like it
Because it is bitter,
And because it is my heart.'"
-In the Desert by Stephen Crane
- Meow
I shall stop loving you little by little.
If suddenly
You forget me
Do not look for me
For I shall already have forgotten you.
But
If each day, each hour,
You feel that you are destined for me
With impecable sweetness,
If each day a flower
Climbs up to your lips to seek me,
Ah my love, ah my own,
In me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
My love feeds on your love, beloved,
And as long as you live it will be in your arms
Without leaving mine"
- If you Forget Me by Pablo Naruto
"In the desert
I saw a creature, naked, bestial,
Who, squatting upon the ground,
Held his heart in his hands,
And ate of it.
I said: 'Is it good, friend?'
'It is bitter-bitter,' he answered;
'But I like it
Because it is bitter,
And because it is my heart.'"
-In the Desert by Stephen Crane
- Meow
Monday, July 5
Getting old and perspectives
I know I'm getting old when I check out a cute guy and my eyes scroll to his left hand and look for a wedding ring.
I'm laying in bed watching Alaska State Troopers and Its struck an attraction w rugged law men. Hmm...I think tonight is a romance novel night. Hahaha! I crack myself up.
- Meow
I'm laying in bed watching Alaska State Troopers and Its struck an attraction w rugged law men. Hmm...I think tonight is a romance novel night. Hahaha! I crack myself up.
- Meow
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